Lena's Struggle

Lena lay sprawled on the bed, rubbing her clit anew slowly and with delighted relish. She was lost in her reverie. Rainer had been avoiding her bed for a year and had flown to the States months ago. Since Jack's birth, she has been unable to have children anymore and that may have been one of the triggers for his sexual dilemma. He slept on the couch in the study and she dragged on the one night stand guy into her bedroom, Rainer didn't care. Since that time she got used to leaving the bedroom door open and also the bedside lamp burning overnight. She knew very well that Rainer was secretly watching her and her lovers fucking. She also noticed, of course, that he was watching her masturbate. The semen stains on his sheet spoke a clear language. Every time she noticed, that he started to masturbate, she went naked to him in the study and fucked him immediately. But he was always upset when she caught him in a moment of weakness and fucked him. It did not solve the problem at all. She had gone down to the neighbor's apartment every morning for 10 days and let his guest fuck her brains out. The African had a big, crooked black cock that filled her pussyhole completely. She let herself be fucked almost to unconsciousness with his giant cock every morning, and the old, ugly neighbor sat grinning next to her, rubbing his ugly, unappetizing cock. He never found women and he had no one to fuck, so it was a godsend for him when young Lena, who was not yet 28, came down to him to be fucked by his guest. He did not miss this opportunity to fuck her when she was completely exhausted and defenseless. He sat curled up next to her like an evil leprechaun, greedily rubbing his cock. He stuck his tongue half out and chewed on it as the African came to the finale and squirted into her. When the African had finished squirting, the leprechaun also stuck his cock into the exhausted girl and let it squirt in with a wicked, gloating laugh. She felt terribly ashamed when he fucked her with a sardonic grin and squirted in, but she couldn't stop it. Afterwards, sometimes the neighbor would ambush her in the corridor and forced her to follow him to his apartment to fuck. She found it very disgusting, but she fucked him anyway. He was already quite old and fucked only with great difficulty, but he wanted to fuck her every two months at least. Rainer had flown away and left her alone with Jack. With Rainer gone, so was the whipping to orgasm gone, so she masturbated every night with her finger only.

Jack had knocked and was standing naked under the door. He held his cock tightly, his eyes begging miserably. She flipped back the covers, allowing him to join her. He stopped and stared at her pussy for minutes. She had continued to play with her clit, lost in thought, but when she noticed his gaze, she stopped instantly. The memory came to her with force and the blush covered her face down to her breasts.

When Jack was little, about 11 or 12 years old, she had once shown herself to him naked in the bathroom and explained sex and everything in detail. She had shown him the clit in particular, saying that it was there so that women could pleasure themselves with it if they wanted to. She showed him her masturbation, when the boy insistently demanded it, but she stopped without orgasm. Men rubbed their dicks with their fists to cum, but that wasn't healthy. He should let it squirt by itself at night, she said, and that was normal and healthy. The little boy had been allowed to stick his index finger into her pussyhole when she explained him the fucking and squirting. He was allowed to fingerfuck her and she laughed brightly. He paused thoughtfully. A thought flashed in his eyes, then he crowed that he wanted to stick his cock in like Dad, who had been allowed to stick it in and fuck her. He had seen it as a child. Strange, that he could remember it after so many years. She had reluctantly given in after a long hesitation and dispute and the little boy fucked her standing up, twice in a row. He stood between her thighs and held onto her hips. He stared at her breasts, her nipples dancing in front of his face. He thrust for an amazingly long time and squirted, his fingers clawing into her asscheeks as he cum. He was taken aback and waited a few seconds before continuing to fuck. He stared down at his cock driving in and out of her pussyhole. He had to fuck much longer now, but he squirted bravely and held still. He looked up at her and she nodded encouragingly, "come, again!" she said smiling. But he didn't manage the third time, she took his cock in her hand and gave him a quick and wonderful handjob. Rainer laughed when she told him, but he didn't like it at all. She was lying to Rainer, she would not let the boy fuck her again. Rainer agreed, because this kind of physical instruction really went too far for him. The next day Jack wanted to fuck again, she very reluctantly gave in and said this was the last time, for sure. Again he stood between her thighs, pulled back the foreskin and spread her little hole with two fingers before penetrating. This astonished her, because he copied Rainer in detail. The boy fucked slowly and squirted, after a short pause he continued fucking, very much the little Rainer. He had to fuck her for a very long time until he squirted in rearing up. She smiled encouragingly at him to keep going. Again he started a third time, and again she had to finish it with a firm handjob. For the next two years she only let Jack fuck her when he begged very persistently. Mostly she just gave him handjobs, three or four times in the afternoon. Or she would watch him masturbate, which he did more and more often in front of her. But after two years, he was in a gang at school where the girls gave the boys handjob after handjob. Jack secretly filmed the girls when they masturbated in front of the gang or when a girl was gang fucked, one by one. He showed the videos to Lena, who found that very arousing. Jack didn't participate in the gangfuck, because he was too cowardly to fuck in front of the others and because gangfucking a girl didn't seem to be fair to him, he stated, but she didn't believe that.

Now he stood naked under the door and begged. She threw back the blanket and he lay down with her. She let the blanket slide carelessly to the floor. She reflexively grabbed his cock and instantly felt a hot wave race through her pussy. "Your cock has gotten pretty big, though," she murmured. She hadn't seen his cock in years and was surprised. He was very excited and burstingly horny. He squeezed in her hand and she put the cock on her pussy. Holding him very tightly, she considered for a moment relaxing him with a handjob. "You really want it, I can feel it!" she exclaimed softly, immediately dismissing the handjob. He sighed deeply as she moved his cock back and forth on her pussy. "So," she asked lurkingly, "can you fuck at all yet?" she asked and he nodded. "I secretly fucked a girl from the gang today," he whispered hoarsely. "First girl ever." Lena pulled the foreskin all the way back and pressed the glans onto her pussy. "Ahh, I see," Lena said, "and now you want to fuck me, don't you?" Jack continued to sigh, shying away from saying it so directly. "So, secretly fucked, huh?" It wasn't irony, it was curiosity. The urgent warmth in her pussy made her think three steps further, she squeezed the glans even tighter. Something in her mind whispered to her not to do a senseless handjob after all, as his glans dripped a little bit and she dabbed the glans rhythmically on her clit. Maybe, she thought, maybe this was how he would squirt. She had no way of knowing that he had already squirted while watching her dreamily masturbation. She dabbed the glans a little bit into her cunthole and she knew quite clearly that she wanted him to fuck her. Jack told about a certain Leila he had had to fuck. "Isn't she afraid of getting pregnant?" Lena asked and he didn't answer, he hadn't thought about that. "Leila is one who lets the whole gang fuck her," he said croakily, "she lets one after another fuck her. She always takes off all her clothes, she has no shame there. They fuck one right after the other, five or six guys. Leila masturbated during the whole fucking and usually long after the last one had squirted in. She did it grinning because she's a real slut and I don't think she's afraid of getting pregnant." He said he had already shown her Leila's group fucking and masturbating as a movie, had she forgotten? Lena grabbed his cock while he was telling and rubbed it hard on her pussy. "Tell me it in detail," she said, closing her eyes dreamily. She saw it clearly in front of her, how Leila took his finger and masturbated with it. Her finger touched her clit, it wanted it now too. "You used to let me fuck you years ago," he said in a begging tone. Lena let go of his cock and he thrust forward instantly. Smiling, she steered his cock and folded her leg to the side, allowing him to penetrate deeper. Lena rubbed her clit gently and imagined what he was telling. He had cum immediately when Leila let him penetrate.

Jack fucked slowly and anxiously, would she let him continue, would she tolerate it? Lena let him tell again how Leila masturbated herself with his finger. Lena listened for minutes, now rubbing her clit fast. She moaned softly as the orgasm came, her legs trembling ever so slightly for moments. He continued thrusting powerfully, reporting how he had to thrust in Leila's. Lena continued to dream on and he reported haltingly that he had squirted into Leila, jet by jet. Jack felt it rising up inside him and he thrust faster and harder. Lena felt his firm thrusting and continued to stroke her clit, so fine it was. A moment later a certain restlessness spread through him, he felt the explosion and squirted the first jet hard inside. Suddenly she flinched, Jack was squirting, hell, he was squirting right in! Suddenly a kind of panic seized her. Surely he wasn't supposed to squirt in, or hadn't she told him?

She yanked his cock out with a soft cry. His cock kept squirting and she rubbed him hard. He squirted and squirted, slowly it stopped. She scolded him, he was not allowed to squirt inside! He nodded contritely, he had suspected it, but he didn't care. She considered for a moment why she didn't want to let him squirt in. She wanted to keep control, have the upper hand and not submit to him as a submissive weak female. She was still holding his cock, it was still stiff. Lena looked at him from the side and smiled knowingly. "You still have to keep going, keep fucking, don't you?" Without waiting for an answer, she stuffed his cock back into her pussyhole. "Okay," she said decidedly, "you can keep going, just don't cum inside!" He was confused for only a split second, then his face brightened and he continued fucking all over again. She caressed her clit and continued to dream on. The flogging with the dog whip had stopped as Rainer's sexuality froze. It was a complete surprise, but she told herself it would come again, that it would come again for sure. It didn't come again, and he urged her to find a guy to fuck. She did, as she was so upset and angry with his cold reaction. She was getting one or more guys every week. She completely forgot how nice it was with Rainer. She let the guys fuck her, but usually she remained highly aroused only, when she sent the guy home. She only satisfied herself with her finger every night, no whipping anymore.

Jack was thrusting much faster now, panting "Now!" he gasped with a suffering look on his face. Lena did not understand what he actually wanted to say and continued to rub her hot clit. But after a while she cried out, because he squirted with all his might inside. She yanked out his cock and grabbed it, rubbing it really hard until he finished squirting. She didn't blame him, but she turned her ass to him and stuffed his cock into her ass crease. She continued to rub his cock there, muttering that's where he could rub, grind and squirt at will. She continued to rub his cock and he squirted into her palm once again. She grinned wryly, "you little piglet, you!"

The next days she always let him fuck in her pussyhole for a short time, for minutes only, and grabbed his cock well before squirting. In the end she taught him to fuck her in the asshole. He seemed to like it, at least he preferred it to a handjob. He did it for a few weeks, she lay on her back, stretched her legs high in the air and spread them with her elbows. He stared at her open pussyhole and muttered that he was going to fuck her one day like a man. She objected and shook her head, never! He fucked her asshole wildly and squirted in, then he stuck his cock in her pussyhole. She protested aloud, but he let his cock inside. Now she masturbated, with her legs high up, rubbing and whipping her clit with her fingers to orgasm and enjoyed beaming his aroused watching. It went well for a few days.

But he no longer squirted while ass‐fucking. He put his cock in her cunthole and held her by the hips ironclad, her legs were stretched high in the air, which she held with her elbows. So he fucked her hard and squirted inside. He pulled it out and she cried, she cried bitterly and disappointed. He had done it on purpose, she lamented sobbing.

But he did it every time now. She cried heartbreakingly each time, because she didn't want to lose control, but he was winning. She let him fuck her with her legs stretched high up in the air and she flogged her clit with her fingers to orgasm. She got such a quick orgasm and let him squirt inside, smiling. She enjoyed it this way night for night.

She sometime later questioned Jack how it was now with the group fucking of the gang? He scratched his head and only hesitantly came out with the truth. He fucked all the girls in the meantime like the others, if the girl wanted to be fucked. He was really enjoying it by now, he admitted grinning. But some girls were forced and cried because she wanted to fuck with one guy only, but did not want to be fucked by all. He didn't go along with that, he felt sorry for the girl and despised the hulking, brutal gangbangers who forced the girl to do it. He had still filmed the group fucking and Lena masturbated wildly and full of horniness while she watched the footage. She had never been fucked by more than one before and the idea alone made her furiously horny.

She had been talking to Rainer on the phone for an hour every month, and he was horrified that she was fucking Jack. He demanded to divorce. But the matter was much more complicated. Rainer had bought a part of the company with his patents and was making a lot of money. He had seduced and deflowered the 15‐year‐old daughter of a business partner. The affair threatened to blow up, and the only way he could save himself, his reputation and his money was to marry her. So he planned to get engaged. Lena hung abruptly up and howled into her pillow until midnight. Jack learned piecemeal how the things stood. He lay down with her, hugged and comforted her. He didn't think for a moment about fucking.

Of course, she agreed to the divorce; she had lost Rainer already some time ago. Jack was a sensitive boy and held her tightly in his arms night after night. Sex had no place now in that time.

But it didn't last a week. She lay on her side and reached back, touching his cock. She felt how bursting stiff his cock was. She smiled, not wanting to see him suffer just because she was suffering miserably. He lay half behind her, as he had in the beginning of their relationship, holding her breasts very gently from behind, as he always did. His cock was pressed into the crease of her ass. She whispered, "come on, let's fuck!" She steered his cock into her pussyhole and he immediately began to fuck, squirting after only a few moments. "You sure needed it badly," she grinned. He had his cock stiff and continued fucking slowly. Her fingers touched the clit as if by accident, but she knew it wasn't accidental. She let herself float in her reveries and masturbated. He lifted his head to see her finger masturbating the clit and kept fucking. It reassured her that he cared and that she was making him horny with it. She let her legs shiver in the gentle orgasm and kept going, orgasm after orgasm, until he had enough and stopped. So they overcame the bad news.

They kept this way of fucking in the next years. He liked to lie half behind her, holding her breasts from behind and she directed his cock with her fingertips. He lifted his head to see her finger masturbating. He had secretly watched her masturbate every night in the months after Rainer had left, but he hadn't dared to knock on her door in these first months. The door of the bedroom was always open and the bed light on, so he could hunker down in the dark and watch her quite clearly. He watched her a hundred times as she spread her legs and caressed her labia for a long time, then parted them with her fingers and he could now see her cunthole. Her little clit seemed stiff and hard as she rubbed it relentlessly. She usually had only a slight orgasm that made her legs shiver for seconds only, then she gently caressed the clit and masturbated all over again. She usually masturbated until she dozed off and fell asleep. It was insanely exciting and arousing for him to watch her masturbate.

Earlier he had not spied on her so often, because he was afraid of being caught by his father. But sometimes the father was not home, and there he took his post in the dark spot and watched her and the lover fucking. She always brought men with big cocks. Jack held his breath when the man penetrated her pussyhole with his fantastic cock. Jealousy ate at his mind. He had gotten to fuck her many years ago as a young boy, a few times, but he barely remembered the details. Back then he had such a small cock, that his hasty fucking didn't arouse her at all. Now, however, when the man penetrated and fucked her long enough and really hard, she went into sexual ecstasy and sometimes even had an orgasm, but very rarely. Otherwise her ecstasy was not so strong, but every lover could excite her sexually more or less. Jack advanced as close as he could when the lover squirted inside, that was always the most exciting moment. Then, when the man pulled his cock out, Jack would stare into her wide open cunthole, with the semen oozing out. She threw on a robe and walked her lover to the door. Then she lay back on the bed and masturbated immediately. She was sometimes still so sexually aroused from the fucking, that she had to masturbate only very briefly to reach the first orgasm. He would always stay on watch until she got tired, dozed off and fell asleep. He would then sometimes silently sneak up to her and stare at her pussy for minutes. His thoughts would flash over, when he dared to touch her pussy with his fingertips. She then moved a little bit and he slipped out silently.

It wasn't until he had fucked Leila in the janitor's tool chamber that he stopped in the open doorway, watching and waiting until his mother had dreamily finished masturbating. He watched her body shivering lightly in orgasm for a minute, firmly and gently pressing her finger on the clit. She sighed deeply and caressed her clit, maybe to start again masturbating. But he didn't want to wait anymore. He squeezed and rubbed his cock desperately to gain courage, then only knocked on her door. He said what it was about and stared with begging eyes at her wet shimmering slit, her reddened labia, and at her clit, which her fingers were touching again, lost in thoughts.

"Come in, lie with me!" she sighed sleepily.

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